Ok, so I did a half hour of DDR, then spent the whole day on Wii tennis, I had a yogurt and an apple, and that’s it. I didn’t gain weight, but I bloody maintained. I hurt everywhere. I can’t do this anymore. I’m going back to bed. I’m waiting until I get a bloody job before I try and lose weight, and then I can f-ing come home and be all, “Sorry, I just couldn’t wait, so I grabbed a burger on the way home!” And I can finally get something bloody done. Also, on another random note, I had a dream last night that Ellen Degenerous fell in love with me, and I moved into her hourse, and it was huge, and she had like six dogs, and she kept asking me what kind of dog I liked so she could get me one as well, and she was showing me around her mansion, and my friend was there for some reason, and she told me she thought the whole thing was weird, but I just shrugged and said “She’s really nice actually, I don’t really see anything wrong with it.” Then Ellen popped out of nowhere and gave me a big hug, and I woke up feeling loved. Weird. Take care of yourselves everyone, I’ll let you know how I’m doing again tomorrow.
I’m such negative nancy, but it’s true. I only did half my exercise yesterday (per usual) and I ate a little bit, but dammit I couldn’t get out of dinner. Stupid huge greasy hamburger with bloody cheese and bacon. At least they let me drink a Diet Dr.Pepper with it. Look, positive! Now, on with the story. I gained weight. Surprise Surprise. Almost an entire pound. I’m mad and burnt out now. So I’m going to do an hour of the exercise I’m supposed to do, then an extra half hour, then I’m going to do 60 sit ups and 60 jumping jacks and the only thing I’m going to have today is a coffee and an apple. Feed me what you want for dinner, you can’t make me gain weight! >: O
Well, I managed to get out of dinner again, I was supposed to exercise for an hour, but I only managed half and hour because I was so hungry and sore, I did a crap load of chores so I was running all over the place getting stuff done, and I. Maintained. 120.2, at least I don’t have to work today I guess. I’m supposed to do 2 hours of exercise today, and I’m so sore I can barely move, but dammit I’m going to get it done if it kills me! And I’m going to eat very very very very little today. I guess 500 calories is too much. I’ll be sure to eat less. If I don’t reach 115 soon I don’t want’s going to happen to me, I’m so sore all the time. My bones hurt under my skin, I bet all my skin is just bruised on the inside, I’m physically falling apart. But I can’t lose like this. I’ll push through. Like I always do. Forever.
Oh, I think I exercised too much. I could barely get to sleep last night from the pain in my legs and it’s only moderatly better today. I’m pretty sure I’ll have to work tomorrow and yet every cell in my body wants to force myself to exercise today too. I restricted, got out of dinner, exercised for over an hour and only lost half a pound. I mean, I’m happy I lost and I’m down to 120.2, I just thought it would be a little lower with all the pain and effort I put into it. Then again, my muscles are spazzing, so that might add to my weight. I don’t know. I hope I reach 115 soon, I don’t know how much longer I can do this…
So I lost weight yesterday! I’m down to 120.8! I’m so excited >w< Especially, because yesterday I found out that Subway is selling something called the Cranberry Cheesecake cookie. So I went home and did my research, 210 calories and multiple assurances that it taste’s just like cheesecake! So I skipped breakfast, and lunch, saved up my calories and went to get one. It was disgusting. Worst way to spend 210 calories either. It tasted like a cranberry macedamian nut cookie filled with white choclate and pure sugar cubes. It was so disgustingly sweet I could barely swallow it. Like Pixie sticks from 7-11! Anyways, so after that mess I was sure I’d gain weight today, but I guess the long walk to subway twice helped me burn off the calories - ironic! And the cute subway guy who works there that I always stare at, and he ignores me, looked up at me at least three times and smiled at me. I almost died! Happy though. Good and happy. I hope you’re all well, lot’s of love! :3
I mean, alright, it could be worse. But I didn’t lose any weight today. Not an ounce! And I did so much excercise yesterday I hurt everywhere. I hate this. At least my Grandma’s feeling better now. Dammit. I’m skipping breakfast. And I think I’m skipping lunch too, and I’m doing more exercises. I guess 300 cals a day was too much, going to have to cut that down. Wish me luck. I hope to see you all soon. :3
Okay, now I’m starting to think there’s something wrong with my scales. I lost a pound since yesterday. A pound!?! Now here’s the kicker, my Grandmother was really sick so I didn’t have any time to do exercise. NO exercise! I just sat there for 13 hours making sure she was breathing. The little bit of exercise I did was go to the store and pick up some gingeraile for her tummy. A pound!?! I mean, don’t get me wrong, I’m psyched, I just don’t see how it’s physically possible. Totally expecting a huge gain tomorrow. But seriously, super psyched to be down to 121.6, and for anyone reading this, maybe some quick well-wishes for my Grandma? I’m hoping she pulls through. Update again tomorrow! :3
Wow guys, I lost another half pound! I mean, I only ate 215 calories as well, but I’m also hoping it was the Wii Tennis! Sweet! Very exctied about that. So I’m now at my lowest weight of 122.6! Super Awesome! I’m going to stay focussed, and work hard, and try to lose as much weight as I can, because tomorrow I’m going out with my sister, and who know’s what we’ll be eating! I need a head start on the weight loss! Love you all, take care! :3
